tick tock tock ..time passing by so quickly..and boom! im going to b 20 soon...yet i find it amusing...but dissapointing.. a sense of guilt covers me. july 13 is a day i nearly commited a murder.

being insignificant in family bothers me lots. it seems tt everyone is busy over something tt is trivial... i wan some attention pls. it seems tt everyone had forsaken me..where is the warmth and love i anticipate?



Im anticipating something...but i noe for sure this wun ever happen to me.


I getting so selfish...more and more... I noe some things are not meant for me, but i want it.


Things which money cant buy... where ppl can easily get, but, i cant.


now being restless... some devils evil doing my body.





chanting the incantations,
wish to be cinderella,
waiting the clock strike 12
close my eyes,
pray that the nightmare i have until now,
will soon be over.




maybe i should stop..stopppp


i shan't...things tt does not belong to me...
i shan't crave for...
i dun deserved to be loved..

Another blow of flu atk me, making mi left a few health point...now both my ears have difficulties in hearing...my voice become lower and more...sexier. And the lousy doctor gave me an stupid medicine includes sleeping pill...tmd...i jus taken medicine... it making mi sooo dizzy and sleepy...when i dizzy, i keep seeing double vision....

yesterdae tt stupid medicine make mi fell down =.= luckily im at my hse...if not I may fell down and fall asleep on the same spot...=.=''

today~ i feel sweet and nice~ although abit slpy cos i jus taken tt drowsy med....well i gonna stay thruout the whole lesson~~ and my stupid UT!!!

GOGOGO! ME~

just recover frm the irritating flu. last last week~ 25th june kena fever, flu, sore throat, body aching, diarrhor.. kena LOA for 7 days~ comeback to sch last thurs. and today,i feel feverish, worser flu, worsen sorethroat and cough.

Actually, I remain low profile in class... cos i dun wanna wear tt ugly mask, but clever ling ling, my faci spotted mi tt im unwell, but, pity tt, is already end of classes. kena some clsmate who say me la.... kena flu also nv wear mask arh!" is abit hurting, but...hahaha~ I dun care anymore~ RP forced me to become like this!


I feel 100x worst den tt time i fall sick! ALL THANX TO MY DEAR SCH RP! IM SO PROUD OF MY SCH! RP IS THE ICONIC SCH FOR H1N1~~!!!


thinking going polyclinic tml if still feel uwell....haizz...but i wanna go sch.......